Tatyana Astakhova biography
In life, a loving wife and mother of two children. I'll tell you more about the points. Personal life. Once my life resembled the Russian series of the Russian TV channel 1. A good, modest excellent girl grew up and turned into a beautiful swan. Having entered adulthood, she chose the wrong way, not her path, which lasted about Tyu years. It was the path of self -destruction when you force yourself to put up with the fact that it contradicts your life values.
It seems to you that you endure and squeeze yourself, because you are strong, but in fact your difficult and unhappy life is nothing more than a manifestation of weakness and inability to change something. It took me years to correct everything, regain my life, and become a truly happy person. At the moment, I am a member of the Russian Union of Writers and the International Union of Poets, I have several significant awards for contribution to the development of modern Russian literature: medals named after Anna Akhmatova, them.
Sergei Yesenin, them. Fedor Dostoevsky, the medal "St. George ribbon - 75 years", as well as the Order of the Heritage of the degree. Poems began to compose years at 3, with pleasure recited her "unlawful" in front of the touching loved ones. Mom even recorded my performances on magnetic tape. Later, when she learned to read and write, she began to compose more conscious poems.
When I turned 7 years old, my mother took me to the literary association "Ostrogozhsky springs", where the poets of our city and the district gathered. There, not only listened to my poems, there they were dismantled and even criticized my creations, gave advice. At the end of the meeting, according to tradition, we drank tea from thermos together. He was always so hot that I always burned my tongue.
I then studied in the second grade. The fee in the amount of the 1st ruble was sent to me directly to the school, because they did not know my home address. The teachers were at first bewilderment, and then they were delighted! Subsequently, I often wrote poetry for school events. At the age of 14, I began to write songs, learned to play the guitar and began to perform my creations to my own accompaniment.
Further there were many different competitions and festivals, but this is only later. And at first, others convinced me that the composition of poems and songs is childish fun that adult life is a hard work, there is no place in it for such “nonsense” “Nobody needs your poems,” they said. And I fell silent, I stopped writing anything, blocked my creative stream, tightened the "noisy on my own neck." Well?
As you can see, I succeeded! I returned myself! And in this whole story this is the most important thing. Although it was not at all easy. I made a lot of important conclusions from my experience: - You can’t step on your throat! Do not change yourself, do not betray yourself! This awareness had its own target, it was too expensive, so I can’t leave this ceiling information only to myself, I want to share it!
I have something to say to this world, and I will no longer be silent. I began to write poetry again, stopped hiding them on the table, and I began to share them on the Internet. And you know what? It turned out that people need these verses, it turned out that for someone it is no less important than for me. And this is another stage in my life! My life would then have developed in a completely different way, and I would not have made such mistakes, the consequences of which I still have a dry in the form of a shaken health.
Well, a psychologist who extends a helping hand, I did not meet, I had to climb myself. My life is my experience. My philosophy would I like to return now and change everything? Because now I'm especially happy! I can appreciate this happiness, feel every moment of it, enjoy it. By the way, the latter, it seems to me, is the worst thing - hopelessness, helplessness, hopelessness is the most terrible, although in fact this does not exist, there is always a way out, it is important only to find the strength not to give up.
Everyone who knows me personally, who knows the history of my life, they say: “You are well done! You are cool! You have done it! Now everything is good with me. A loving and beloved husband and two wonderful children: a daughter and a son. I am engaged in my favorite thing, help people, I write, I am open to this world, and they read me, they hear me. I love this world and this life, I am happy as you are happy as I am a happy person.
Everything is from flesh and blood, with my stupid fears, with my oddities and weaknesses. I do not have time, I am not an ideal mistress, not an ideal wife and mother. And I accept myself, I allow myself to be not perfect. I do not have time in everyday life and in life, but I have time to be happy, and this is the main thing! I accept all my gratitude problems. They are given to me to gain another experience in life, to become wiser.
I am growing, and it's cool! It turns out that it is not difficult to be happy, you just need to allow yourself to be happy! Be happy!I will be glad if you stay with me if my life values are close to you, and my philosophy, my thoughts, my poems will find a response in your soul. I will be glad to help those who need my help and my support. I will be glad of your feedback.
I am honest with you and hope for reciprocity. Love to you, mutual understanding and power of the spirit! I believe in you! Thanks to everyone who is next to me, to everyone who reads me, who supports me! Thank you, my friends!
With warmth to you, Tatyana Astakhova.